I haven't blogged in over a week because I was distracted with other things, and frankly didn't feel like writing. I am not sure I even feel like it now. I am sad. And my heart hurts. Yet...am over-joyed and humbled.
I guess lets start with the sad. My great aunt was in the hospital, and it terrified me. I was afraid of losing her. She is home now, thankfully, yet still weak. I am not sure I have insurance afterall. When I called to get the policy number the lady said she needed to call and check on my status. She never called me back. I do not have time to mess around! I have an appointment next Tuesday with the neurosurgeon. I have waited a month to get in! I NEED this insurance!! My dad found out tonight that the company he works for is shutting down in June. He was going to pay for my insurance since I can't afford it. Now? Who knows! He doesn't know yet if they will keep him until June. I am trying not to be discouraged, but I admit that I am struggling!
So for over-joyed and humbled. My church had a benefit breakfast Sunday morning to raise money to help with my surgery. They are also doing a fish fry benefit on the 14th, next Wednesday, for the same purpose. Wow! That's amazing to me. I have never felt so loved by my church family or by God. He is still teaching me and growing me. And I am in awe daily. So I have a lot to be thankful for, yet it is a struggle at times still. I am just tired of hurting, and being in bed. It is making me crazy! Ah well, such is life, right?
It is cold here, too, and rainy. I love the cold, always have. Love curling up in a warm bed with a good book and hot cocoa. I love Christmas. I love celebrating my Saviors birth. Love trees, lights, and giving! :) Yet, the cold makes my back, hip and leg hurt worse! The pain is intensified, and I don't like that. Must figure out how to better deal with it!
